Friday 29 April 2022

Why I buy the things I do

I bought it because 

Number one excuse 

The shopkeeper 

In that hutment there 


Reminded me of a cousin 

Who I vividly remember

The chap did nothing 

The whole day, ever 


But he spoke kindly 

With his arms spindly 

His teeth with paan stain 

Sigh , don't try in vain 


To comprehend my reasons 

As to why I bought the mud 

Pot , meant to feed bird (s) 

It leaks . Even the chaps sons 


In confiding whispers, told  me so 

But he looked so much like dadu 

I can understand when it beats u 

How a man in dhoti cheats me , oh 


That another woman in a white saree 

Smiling in  all her toothless glee 

At my apparent gullibility 

When I let her give me , almost for free 


Two rotten gourds , which she lugged 

All the way from her stone age hut 

I felt my grandmother , as she hugged 

Me .Her breath of cloves and betel nut 


I can't begin to explain 

The smell of familiar pain 

Of my  village-y yesteryears , 

All scraped afresh , it appears 


Not sounding like Celine Dion 

But it's all returning ,coming 

Haunting me ,

Taunting me 


For I, who went farthest 

Climbing the hills highest 

Crossed rivers at their widest 

At heart, remained the closest.







Tuesday 26 April 2022

Cinderella

On mic someone brayed 

A music they played 

Then a little girl braved 

On stage she grooved 


Crooned a lovely ditty 

No one heard , what a pity 

Shoo they said to her , " Page ! 

"Get off the stage "


Let others sing and dance 

Adults who know how to prance 

Who pick up fights and the Lance 

Let them show you perchance 


Please learn the correct steps 

You won't get too many reps 

And the girl tried very hard   

In the end she  mastered 


She danced masterfully 

To adult steps specifically 

And lost her originality , fully 

" Oh ! She dances wonderfully!! " 


Everyone clapped

Rushing to photograph 

Take her autograph 

She had laughed 


And cried at the same time 

"I can't sign "  she said , "Me? 

" I have sold my soul , can't you see? "

And it's time for me , to flee ."


"To keep my word with Beelzebub 

She told the bumbling hub bub 

She ran with her gown in her hands 

Leaving her glass slippers in the sands





Just stand tall

 Shakily , I painted Prussian blue 

Instantly , I knew

 it was not the right hue 

Where to learn? From who? 


In the absence of tutors 

Teachers and mentors 

To read no memoirs 

I taught myself the colors 


I looked up the sky 

I saw the birds fly 

I stared at the leaves try 

To speak to me and cry 


Of their highs and lows

Of their hates and loves 

Whether  On or off 

Their parental bough 


There they were with all others 

Resplendent in million colours 

The blues , the greens , the ochres 

Verdant and lush , acres 


They taught me a lesson

That in nature was so common 

Whether you are big or small 

It's just important to stand tall 


That is about all 

That is it all 

Just stand tall 

Proud and tall .










Sunday 17 April 2022

Dance

 I never danced .

Ok , maybe in primary school , under the tutelage of strict nuns .
We danced to holy tunes , with lamps in our hands . Twisting and turning our young bodies , never letting the lamp fall.
Burning candles could have set our tulle skirts alight . So we were ultra careful . It was a beautiful dance . Dangerous and spectacular . Never before staged , in a small Jharkhand town . Their own girls , weaving such other worldly magic. It was a superhit . If there was stardom to be attained , there it was . We ruled the hearts and imaginations of an entire small town . What more to crave for ?

Tuesday 12 April 2022

Sunday Breakfast

 There was a long queue outside the dining hall . It was Sunday . Holiday . People with long tresses had washed their hairs , left it open , and the tied a perfunctory rubber band at the end , giving their hairs a funny tied down balloon look . This way they would dodge the rule police , which said ” no open hair at the dining table ” . 

There were church goers and movie show enthusiasts , who were grumbling for the slow making of dosas.
There was a large griddle in the mess , enough to make four dosas simultaneously . But the crepes were served hot . Off the griddle . They were crisp , paper thin , delicious and a weekly treat . No one wanted to miss . Hence the serpentine queues . Air redolent with the aroma of all the shampoos available in the CSD. Sunsilk , ponds, lux and tresemme . We were a walking ad for all these MNCs . And all the perfume brands , cheaply available in the local shop.
There was only one . Stella french parfum . These competed with the more appetising aromas of hot dosas and coconut chutney , asafoetida laden sambhar emanating from the kitchen . It was a battle of smells. 

Even the bus conductors could tell us apart . From the coconut oil in our hairs , our looks , and our odours . Clumps of feminine
giggliness . We would dissolve into laughter at the slightest and silliest provocation . So , that Sunday , despite delays , and rumbling tummies , and delays in church and movie halls , there was lot of laughter in the air . Good natured ribbing too . 

Then came the seniors . A breed apart . Licensed bullies . Having survived four years of this life , they were authorised to bully any junior into submission . Any junior they took a fancy to . Their noses in the air , they sallied in , and we parted , like the red sea . Giving them access to the first hottest dosa . First , precious , long awaited dosa . It was a moment of truth . A junior, confirmed movie fanatic , counted the number of seniors on her fingertips , made some quick mental calculation and softly let out a curse . Trying to be as inconspicuous as possible , she broke off the line , quietly slinking away .

It was not to be .

A booming voice arrested her progress . “Hey you ! What is for breakfast ?”


Who me ? Her bewildered look confirmed her worst fears. While she was being roasted here , outside the dining hall , in the movie hall , Shah Rukh Khan would have waltzed into Kajol's heart , without she witnessing the romance . Tears stung her eyes . Overwhelming hunger didnt help either . 


We all watched her being cornered in pitiful horror , thankful , like all cowardly humans , that it was she and not me . Being fodder for senior ire was not a pleasant way to begin the morning . 



Then began the interrogation .


"What is it ? Why are you crying man ? I just asked you what was for breakfast ? "

" Dosa , miss." She hiccuped .

"And ? "

"And sambar and chutney ." 

"Correct , and now you will have your breakfast with me ." 


And throwing a casual and highly suspicious arm around the crying girl's shoulder she was escorted into the dining hall, surrounded by fourth years , all speaking to her , at once .






Later in the evening , we would come to know , that the girl-who-cried  not only made it to the movie , she was also , unexpectedly , accompanied by this senior , who'd later take her under her wing , and turn her life around . Talk of unexpected series of events on a sunday morning .  





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Monday 11 April 2022

The end

 I met my dear friend , long time no see

Outside the door , waiting for me 

How'd you know I was coming out 

"I have been watching over and about" 


He said , vaguely.  " Come , he said " 

Authoritatively ,grabbed my hand 

No , I can't . Suspicious,  I recoiled .

My home. Can't leave. I pointed. 


Not anymore . He said kindly 

And I crossed the wall with ease 

Cutting through concrete in a breeze

Then it occurred to me" oh jeez " 


I must have been startled 

For he just squeezed my hand 

Nodded knowingly and kindly 

I followed him blindly 


We just looked at this massive mango tree 

And found ourselves sitting upon there 

It was so quick . Like a manifestation 

No sensation, sitting light as feather 


"So , this is how it all ends ?" 

I asked . He just nodded 

He was transparent . His ends 

And edges blurred. 


I looked at myself , in panic 

So was I. What unearthly magic. 

So, now what happens ? 

I asked him questions 


"Where does all the treasure go ? 

The history, the science, skills and info 

The grind , the thoughts , the vocab  

Ideas , memories , fantastic and fab "


It all goes to the cosmos

It was never yours 

" You're kidding, right? " 

You're not. I am right  


He spoke with quietitude 

I knew he spoke the truth 

Like seasoned teacher 

He didn't falter. Or dither.


My loved ones prayed 

Mourned and cried 

I too cried , silently , perched

On the tree . Searched 


For me , down there 

But I was up here 

Watching distractedly 

I didn't belong anywhere 


Didn't either exist . 

In the terms strict 






















Tuesday 5 April 2022

Day , night and daybreak

 Daytime it rained fire 

Flames from the skies 

The winds fan fare 

Cooled down the nares 

Somewhat . No ice either.


At night , the troubled heart 

Of the earth , searing heat 

Glowering , glowed red hot 

Bosom on fire, hairs singed 


Crackles of flame 

Tongues of fame 

Licked the skies dark black

Here, taste it right back


Your raging fire burns 

In my own bones 

Earth crackles , churns 

Heartless cackles 


Barks fly , spitting cinders 

Splitting timbers 

Sending shivers 

Mayhem , crazy , no binders 


By morning , the hearth 

Has cooled , 

Wounds healed 

 Nourishment cooked 


What tumultuous waste , Ash , debris 

What fantastic foliage , birds , hubris 

Sun shines brightly on the same land 

And earth, black ,smiles sleepy lidded