Sunday 27 September 2015

Yogi

The night was sultry and stiflingly hot.The watchmen took turns to sleep on their makeshift bed. One slept and the other watched over the mango orchard. It was “the season”. The prolonged dry spell , was beneficial for sweetening the luscious “king of fruits”. Everyday, the contractor would send a batch of pluckers to pluck the ripe ones. At least ten varieties of the fruit grew in the orchard, dating back to goodness-knows-when.
The night air was thick with the fragrance of ripe mangoes. One odd fruit eating bat rustled in the leafy boughs, unseen. Somewhere an owl hooted . The light in the kerosene lamp, grew dimmer with each passing moment.
Suddenly Bhiku jolted awake with a jerk, at the whiff of an unknown danger. As if someone had shook him awake at his post.
He sniffed the still night air,like a dog. The crickets had fallen silent. Something was not quite right.
“Fire!!” His semi-somnolent brain screamed.
“Fire”!! He shook his slumbering companion.
“Where ?Where?” He was instantly awake, grabbing a lathi, the duo ran in a northwesterly direction, from where a wisp of smoke crept lazily , skyward.
Fire in the peak of summer meant disaster. A thick layer of crisp dry leaves , carpeted the orchard floor, waiting to be ignited.
Panting, they reached a small clearing, and stopped.
A naked yogi sat in the centre of a ring of fire , ash -smeared, murmuring chants, eyes closed.
“It is a yogi.” Whispered Bhiku.”What do we do now ?”
His companion, Lakhan Das, said nothing. He just squatted and slowly staring at the yogi,  grabbed the lathi and cleared  the floor of dry leaves and twigs in an arc ,so that the fire is contained.He never took his eyes off the holy man, and suddenly brightened up.
Picking up a twig from the pile surrounding him, he threw it at the chanter's face, aiming directly at the eyes. Bhiku recoiled in horror, "What are you doing?''
In reply, Lakhan, now impishly smiling, threw a pebble at the holy face , now dangerously frowning.
"He will curse you, Lakhan ji."Bhiku trembled with ancient fears.
The eyes flew open as the pebble found its mark, and the sadhu slowly unwound himself, his ash smeared body looking like some surreal sculpture in the middle of the forest, now glowing with the light of the embers.
The sadhu chewed furiously, trying to form correct words. Before he could utter a word, Lakhan prostrated, "Pranam guruji, madanji the great." Bhiku who had followed suit and prostrated himself too, turned to look at Lakhan, now grinning like a cat.
"What? Madanwa? The cobbler's son!!"
"Yes! Madan, the cobbler's son."
The Holy man , picked up his staff, and thundered"Sacrilege!! How dare you disturb me in my prayers?The wrath of the Gods will be upon you, I hereby curse you..."
"First of all , get your act straight, and wear some clothes , for God's sake ."
Lakhan quietly replied, using his raw-hide footwear , to stamp out the fire.
Lakhan was much older to both the young men, and now , it was the holy man's turn to prostrate himself . 
"Chacha forgive me ."
Giving him his 'Gamcha', Lakhan placed his hands over Madan's head. 
'Go back home son, there is no "Dharma " in abandoning your household, and orphaning your children, just for the sake of a revenge."
"But , Chacha.."
"No ifs and buts, go , take a bath, have a hot meal, and sleep.You have a family to look after. Do not fall prey to useless 'nautanki'(drama)"
The promise of a bath and a meal did him in, and Madan broke into loud sobs. 
"It is ages since I took a bath, and months since I ate my wife's hot rotis."
"So, you see. This path, "Lakhan gestured to the now smouldering black patch on the ground, "is not for us,son.Go back home, your wife and kids love you, and they miss you sorely."
Looking contrite and pathetic, Madan tied the gamcha around his waist, and made his way out of the forest, sniffling and wiping his ash smeared brow.
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When dawn broke, the two night watchmen were found engrossed in conversation. Lakhan was filling in his youthful companion.

"Two years ago, the master..
"the master, you mean to say the owner of this orchard..."
"Yes!! The master," here Lakhan laid down on the cot, lifted his arms and folded them under his head, pillowing them.He took a deep breath and continued" two years ago, the master caught Madan red handed while stealing mangoes."
"But he can afford to give away some , he has so many , "Bhiku interrupted naively.

"It was not `some ` !! Madanwa , in his greed, brought two large trucks and had his men strip the entire orchard of all the mangoes, ripe /unripe."
Lakhan paused for effect.
"He literally ruined the crop, that year. The orchard took two years to recover, the pillage ."
"The master," he continued" set his dogs on Madan "
"Dogs!!"
"The police and the goondas"
"Oooh! I see!!"
"To save himself , Madan turned fugitive and had disappeared , till last night."

Here, Lakhan suddenly raised himself on his elbow, looking beyond Bhiku`s shoulder, and loudly said -"Arre bitiya , there was no need for the tea-shea."
Bhiku, swivelled around to see The master`s daughter standing with two flunkies carrying trays of fragrant , freshly made parathas and a kettle of tea with a couple of clinking cups.
He sprang to his feet, and made his obeisance, while the flunkies set the food on the cot.
At another gesture, the two flunkies moved a distance away, while The lady, wearing a pink , silk salwaar-kameez, pulled her net dupatta over her head, and touched Lakhan`s feet, in a time honoured tradition, that transcends class distinctions too.
"Thank you Chacha."She murmured in gratitude.
Visibly discomfited, Lakhan said-"Saubhagyawati bhava."
Quietly,she turned and walked away, accompanied by her flunkies.
                                   
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"But why ? Chacha ?"Bhiku was stumped. Chomping his third paratha, Bhiku spoke between mouthfuls.
"Why what ?" Lakhan asked absently, holding his cup in hand , which was rapidly growing cold .
"Why this sudden benevolence from the Master?"
"This kindness is from the daughter , not the father."
"Achcha !" Bhiku was incredulous.Digesting this piece of strange of information, he took a long sip of tea.

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As the duo walked back home , after the daytime watchers had arrived ,Lakhan was striding ahead, Bhiku ran ahead and caught up with him-"You didn`t tell me the rest of the story."
"What?"
"Why did Madanwa try to rob the Master ?"
"Because he holds an old grudge ,against the master."
"What grudge ?"
"Madanwa eloped with Master`s daughter. He set his dogs at them,dragged them back,separated them , and got Madanwa arrested for false charges."
"****" The surprise came out in expletive form .
"But the daughter is equally adamant. She was pregnant with Madanwa`s child , then. She gave birth to the child, is bringing him up , in her father`s house . She continues to do "karva chauth", and still considers the mad man as her husband ."
 "That explains the sudden kindness."
"Hmmmm " Lakhan was suddenly taciturn.
                                                          $$$$$$

"But how come you know all this story and I don't. No one in the village does , I guess."
"Yes , it was all hushed up.No one was allowed to talk about it. "
"How did you recognise Madanwa despite his disguise , and weight loss etc."
"You can recognise your first born everywhere, can't you ? Specially if he is chanting nursery rhymes instead of  the mantras."



                                                               

Tuesday 22 September 2015

Rain

The rain had gathered momentum now. Large raindrops, slapped sloppily against the windscreen and a sheet of water steadily seeped from underneath the overworked wipers. They were spraying the raincoated pedestrians , with formidable waves of puddle water.
The crossing appeared as a shimmering lake, with a foot of water. The traffic policeman stood at his post, an island amidst impatient , honking traffic and water sloshing around his wellingtons.
“We will never make it.” He waved his arm despondently at the 2km long line of vehicles, slowly snaking past , all wipers furiously at work.
His breath fogged the glass immediately.
She took the piece of cloth, hanging from the hand brake, and mopped the glass.A silent prayer to the Lord , to please let the school gates be open.
The watchmen were likely to shut the gates and disappear into their foxholes, blind and deaf to fog lights and honking even.
“We will be the last parents to pick our child up.”
“I am sure there will be others , thanks to the rain.”
Near the locked gates, a small figure hunched in the rain, drenched to the skin,wrapping her arms around her.
“My baby!! ” She shrieked as he braked hard.

Monday 21 September 2015

History is boring

My daughters too voice the same sentiment.
"History is boring", is the common refrain. I think the fault lies in the way it is taught. There is a greater stress on memorizing the dates, rather than see events / stories  of ancient world, from a modern viewpoint . Once the stories , their fall-outs and their relevance , is understood, it will definitely seem less boring.
 Quintessentially, all history is story -telling, with a difference; these are true stories.
Whatever happened yesterday, last week ,last month,last year,last decade,last century, is history now.
It may be colored with the teller's biases, but we are all humans , aren't we? We all bring our own baggage and biases with us.
We are flawed, and therein lies our beauty.

Wednesday 16 September 2015

Eye of the needle.

Jim Corbett, the great conservationist , had this story to narrate of rural Central Provinces, during the British Raj.
A village chief, a friend of Jim’s , was known for his unconventional methods of healing people. Once , a man-eating tiger attacked another man , who was gathering honey in the forest, and was left for dead on the forest floor.
The family and friends of this man came running to the village chief, to his hut where he sat smoking his hubble-bubble.
The chief went over to the clearing in the forest , and found the victim , on the forest floor, his guts spilled, from a gash in the abdomen, gasping and bleeding like hell.
Legend says this chief, stitched his abdomen up, right there, using a thorn for needle,and green tree bark for thread.
There was , of course, no eye in the needle.
The legend also says that there were twigs and dead leaves sticking to the intestines, which the chief did not bother to remove. They were all stitched up the way they were.Amazingly, this man, lived for another ten years, hale and hearty, without any side effects of the gory event and equally  unorthodox treatment. 

Friday 11 September 2015

THE GOLD HEIST

                                                                                 
The Gold coins tumbled out of the oblong metal box , and lay in a glittering heap, slipping off the mound of higgledy-piggledy piled mountain of bank notes. Ananth was tilting the” golak” , and now he gasped . The smooth shiny roundels continued to slide off the metal walls till the last of them rolled out with a clatter. There was a long moment of pin drop silence. You could hear the ticking of the clock.

“Hey bhagwan!” Head clerk Tushar exclaimed, breaking the stunned silence. “So many gold coins !Where has it come from ?”he asked , voicing all thoughts.

“And who would donate such a thing ?”Ananth always raised practical doubts .Assistant manager Ghorpade, the bank nerd, knelt and placed one near his spectacled face , sniffing it slightly, like a bloodhound.

“ Mudras”!! He exclaimed”Gupta era , Chandragupta , 320 BCE, Brahmi script“ Ghorpade wore a aura of smugness around him. Looking around triumphantly, he added,”Belongs to some museum, price may go upto several crores.”

“Haan, haan , woh sab thik hai , but what do we do with all these gold coins ? Kahan ? Where do we keep this hoard?”The manager Mehta shifted in his seat.

All looked up at him , askance . Eyebrows raised at the mention of the word “hoard”.
”Sir, yeh khajana nahin hai . This is called “Prasad”. Tushar Mishra’s moral compass always pointed north. Neither did he hesitate to speak his mind . Even to the boss Mehta.Profoundly religious, Mishra always sported a large red “tika”on his forehead, spoke in a language liberally peppered with Sanskrit terms, and wore his no-nonsense attitude on the sleeve.

In sharp contrast,the boss Mehta was always sloppily-dressed and ill-kempt, foul mouthed with a phenomenal temper,and also went by the private nick name of “mehetar Mehta “(the untouchable Mehta) in his junior’s circles.

 Ananth quickly disappeared in a small back room, and emerged with a smallish-gunny sack. He quickly separated the infernal coins from the heap of other normal donations, piled it into stacks of ten, and swiftly counting them (100), placed them in a jangling unceremonious mass, in the bag.Tying a swift knot at the top, he held it at an arm’s distance, as if it was dog poop, and asked, turning towards Mehta” Now where do we keep it? What do we do with it?” Ananth, a practical man adept at his job, did not believe in dilly-dallying.

He had been counting donations from the golak , for donkey’s years now. A weeks’, or month’s collection could be sorted out within minutes. Needless to add, a months’ collection often ran into tens of crores of folded and crumpled banknotes, hastily shoved into the “golak” by distressed devotees.  
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The’ pir baba mazar’   was located on the bank premises. Situated bang next to a Government Hospital, partly owned by the bank. That explained the presence of bank employees at the quarterly counting of donations, from the golak or the traditional donation box.

Strange things, besides hefty amounts of money, were known to surface. Gold jewellery and traveler’s cheques were common.

 But this was unprecedented. It almost seemed as if someone was trying to get rid of his booty in a hurry, as Ghorpade rightly pointed out.

Now, everyone was in a fix. A natural oath of secrecy was reinforced with constant reminders, not to leak this information in the bank colony, lest fake claimants turn up in hordes, and the press/police is dragged in. The sack of coins was kept in the same metallic safe, as the rest of the money; triple locked, sealed, and the key handed over to Mehta.

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Far away, thousands of miles across the country, there was hectic activity on foot, and those very same Gold madras were giving sleepless nights to authorities in the Regional Museum of Arts in Patna, Bihar.

Mr.Verma my boss, the archaeologist and head of management of the Museum called me to his office, one wintry evening, when all had headed home. After office hours,only a small yellow bulb burned in the foyer, in the silent, desolate building, when I , Pratiksh Bal, a junior archaeologist, and an expert on numismatics was summoned. Pandeyji, the night watchman, sat on his rickety chair , rubbing tobacco on his lime stained palm.

“Kahe bullat rahin bade sahib, pata badon?”He jumped up and breathed his tobacco breath into my ear, scanning the ghostly verandahs, this way and that.(Do you know why have you been called?)

I took a step back.” Nahin. Aap batayiye, pandey ji!!”I crossed my arms irritatingly.
“Kono chori ka mamla badon. Bahut badi chori!!” He whispered loudly and spread his arms to emphasize. I caught a glimpse of his filthy, hairy underarms, from inside his checked blanket.(It is about a big heist!!)

 I had seen enough. I dodged him and sprinted to the glass door with Verma written on it with cheap red enamel paint.

Verma ji sat pensively, with his back to the door. A room heater glowed at his feet, and a half drunk cup of tea lay on the table.

I cleared my throat, Verma ji didn’t respond. Something was not right. Mr. Verma was a small man, highly strung and was known to jump at every small noise. As I went and swiveled his chair towards me, he lurched and fell into my arms, cold , dead weight, head lolled to one side , eyes glassy, unseeing.

“Pandey ji!!” I screamed.

He was declared brought-in-dead, by the government hospital.

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The police conducted routine queries. Statements were recorded, the body was handed over to the family after autopsy, and the cause of death was written down as cardiac arrest.

 That was when I decided to pay a visit to Pandey ji, the night watchman, who was so terrified of sitting alone in that massive building, that he had taken a few days off.
 His wife, with a large ghoonghat, covering her face, lurked in the doorway.

I put my cup of sugary tea away, and confronted him. Shaking his shoulders, I looked into his rheumy eyes, and asked –“How did you know of the theft, pandeyji? That is all I am asking.”

“Pulice hamar ke bahut marab , sahib.Is liye hum nahin batab.Hamar chot-chot bachcha badon.”(The police will beat me to a pulp, if I tell. I have my kids to look after.)Pandeyji grabbed my feet. The ghoonghat in the doorway, nodded assertion.

After I promised not to tell anyone, and he made me swear on his “Janeyu’(sacred thread), he leant his face towards my ear, darting looks this way and that. The wife shook her ghoonghat with violent negation.

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Early morning, next weekend, found me sitting in the office of the Bank manager, Bank of Bharat, Mudgaon, Maharashtra.

Sipping the espresso from the bank dispenser, I sat listening to the various banking woes from Mr. Mehta, the tall, gangly unkempt and scruffy bank manager of the bank. After a while, I asked the question, I had flown all the way here for –“Mr., Mehta, do you in your bank have an employee, by the name of Mr. Ravikant Ghorpade?”

 Mehta went pale, beads of sweat appeared on his brow, and he stammered-“Wwwhhho?”
I had already read Ghorpade’s  name on the bank employee of the month board outside.

After few gulps of water, Mehta composed himself, and rang the bell, “Ghorpade ko bulao.”He asked the boy in khaki who appeared. After a few moments, the boy reappeared; looking very agitated, and whispered something in Mehta’s ear.

Mehta turned pale again. Turning slowly towards me, he said haltingly, “Ghorpade  is no more, Mr. Bal. We will resume this talk later.”

Leaving me open-mouthed, he shook my hand stiffly, shut his briefcase and marched out of the office, his hairs bobbing up and down.

The bank employees had broken ranks, and were whispering in small clusters. All clammed up at the sight of me, and followed me with accusatory looks. Word must have emerged, that I came looking for Ghorpade, all the way from Patna.

I stopped by one particular group. The speaker was a portly man with a red tikka on his forehead.

“Hari, hari, very bad. His skull was smashed by the very books he was reading. Vidya se hatya?”
“Ghorpade  was sitting, nay sleeping, lying on top of his books, when he was found today morning by his Landlord.”
“No, family, Ghorpade never married.”
“Hey Ram! History was his life.Even on his death night, he was found reading about Chandragupta and Brahmi script.”
“He was such a good soul, who would murder him?”He tut-tutted loudly, and the group resumed work, as the snaky queues of customers had grown restless.

By noon, I had gathered enough information about Ghorpade, the ex-convict, turning a new leaf as a bank employee in a remote town. He had been jailed for a heirloom heist, from a rich widow’s locker. He served five years and had been released six months’ back, for good behavior. A numismatics expert, he was being consulted by Mr. Verma two days before his death, the conversation overheard by Pandey ji, the nosy watchman.They were trying to put a price on the booty.

If Ghorpade  was the thief, Who had murdered him? Who stood to gain ?Where was the loot?Was Mr. Verma an accomplice too? This was a deeper and darker mystery than I thought. I had a sinking feeling.

I was lost in my reverie, sitting on a bench, in front of the pir-baba  mazar, when someone shook my shoulder. It was the tika-clerk from the bank.Reeking of paan, he lifted his face and talked, as the red spittle built up in his mouth.

“Are you related to Ghorpade?”
“No, why do you ask?”
“Das ko Tushar  Mishra kehte hain?”He folded his hands dramatically.I namasted in reply.”You were asking about him in the bank today, that is why?”
“Where have you put up? Why don’t you stay in my home?”

I smiled back at his hospitality, when I suddenly became aware of a person looking intently at us.  Sitting on a low stool next to a clerk, I had noticed this “human counting machine”, whose lips and hands moved like an automaton, and left the eyes to stare and brain to think. Weird!

Mishra followed my glance and said-“That is Ananth,” our money machine “. He laughed, and moved to the roadside to spit the paan-spittle. I suddenly felt certain malevolence in the stare.

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Over swollen hot rotis and fragrant dal, Mishra told me about how he came about this job. His house was on the bank colony premises. He was overtly religious, no doubt. After the meals, he laid a charpoy for me in the courtyard, and said he would come back, after his routine obeisance at the “Peer-baba” ka mazar.

I took the opportunity to accompany him half way through, in the dark. Gathering  courage, I asked him, “Mishraji, do you know anything about a theft of gold coins?”

Mishra stopped abruptly in his tracks and turned to face me. I could not see his face in the dark. But he was furiously chewing his paan , as if keeping the truth from spilling. Then he spied someone over my shoulder, and told in a very loud voice –“God (pointing the mazar) will tell you all truths.”

I turned back as Mishra made away hastily, and almost ran into the person he had spied. It was the same counting machine from the bank-Ananth.He was almost chasing Mishra and the two began an animated conversation, the moment he caught up.

I must have dozed off for good three odd hours, when the bell of the mazar started ringing dole fully, at regular intervals.Mishra’s wife came out and informed me that he was not back yet, which was unusual.

I immediately grabbed a torch and set off in the direction of the mazar. The ringing became louder.

It was coming from the sanctum-sanctorum, which had to be accessed by crossing two doors.
 As I struggled with my footwear, I hastily made a phone call.  In the dark, I saw a man swing a lathi, at me. Then the world went dark.

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When I came to, a deafening sound filled my head, the temple bell ringing. It was swaying right in front of me. The gong of the bell was tied to something, a human arm! Mishraji lay face down, while his hand swung to and fro. I tried calling him, but no sound emerged from my dry lips. I was tied by the wrists and ankles.

I tried freeing myself ,that was when, a shadow in the dark spoke out.” It is no use, you can’t undo it”. The man, thrust out a lathi and stopped the macabre bell. I was inside the sanctum, with Mishra draped on the holy tomb, dead, hand tied to the bell.

“He was always ringing the truth, the bastard! Thought I should let him ring some more.”He chuckled, I saw the face; it was Ananth, the money machine.

“So, it was you.”

“Yes, me . The loyal, unspeaking servant. Who always counts money and never owns it.”
He spat on the Holy ground, with vehemence.

“But, why Ghorpade?”

“Ghorpade  started studying the coins, the bloody padhaku.He would have leaked our secret, sure as hell, sooner or later.All I asked him was to lie low with the coins , till we smuggled it out of the country.But he panicked and poured it into the golak, fool!!  He was better than me in studies, father always said-“He is the better one .” Till he ran off, with the widow’s money, the rascal.”He chuckled here, and then suddenly went silent.

“He was your brother, wasn’t he ?”

“Half-brother. He was born of the witch my father brought back home, one night. My mother and I were given the servant quarters to live. Overnight, I changed from son to servant.”

He continued bitterly, half to himself.

“But I still kept a look out for him, got him this job here, when he was out. The coin theft was not his idea. It was fathers.’

“Whose?” I could not contain my curiosity.

“Your boss, Mr.Verma’s.I just had to pay him a visit. He took one look at me and conked off, the poor sod",he snorted in disgust." Now, I will take your leave.”

“Wait!! What about me?” I had to stall him.

“You can tell people how you killed Mishra.” Again , the mirthless , scary chuckle. By now, I had freed my hands.

I observed him carefully as he walked to the door. I knew that time was running out but suppressed the urge to check my watch. I took a deep breath and started counting in reverse under my breath. "Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two and one”. The door opened and in stepped Mr. Mehta, in the full police uniform of a Sub-inspector.

“Well done Major. Thanks for your timely phone call,we have recorded your conversation, and you”, he looked at Ananth”, are under arrest.”

Ananth, for once, was stumped.

“You are …”He stammered staring at Mehta.

”S.I Mehta, in charge, of investigating the gold coin heist and he is” Mehta finished for him and, jerked his thumb towards me,  “Major Bal of Army Intelligence.”


Tuesday 8 September 2015

Me, Ahilya

(Hindu mythology talks of Ahilya, the beautiful consort of sage Gautama,  who was desired by Indra, the God of Gods . One day when Gautama had gone to the river to perform his ablutions , Indra took the form of Gautama, and made love to Ahilya. Rishi Gautama happened to catch them "in the act". Enraged , he cursed Ahilya , and she turned to stone , while Indra fled the scene.)

For centuries I stood
in my doorway
waiting for you
to suddenly appear
walk along the now
moss filled path
and look up from your reverie
look at me and smile
your warm smile

You didn't come
the doorway crumbled
claimed by termites
and ants
the house buckled
bowing to that
awesome force of
nature , that destroys
everything
to rebuild from scratch.

Everything and everyone
I loved , cherished
passed away , vanished
in front of my eyes
like a movie
like the rattling wheels of
the moving train
that shakes shudders
the world around me
twice , in a day.

My love , me , I remained
frozen , rooted
waiting , condemned
to watch the tandava
of creation , all around me
and not be in it.

I paid for your anger
I paid for my folly( if you can call it thus, I still think I was duped)
I paid for God's deceit

I, the moral ATM
to masculine whims
I paid with the loss of life
loss of many lives
a loss so colossal
you can't even
calculate
A spectator hood
thrust on my soul
for no fault of mine

Ask yourself my lord
If I was in the wrong
or was I wronged

Ask me my thoughts
as I stood in sleet , rains ,
howling wind
and blinding sun

ask me if I thought of you with hope
when the sun rose
and what shade was my despair
when the sun set
in a panorama of flaming gold

ask yourself
if your vengeance was
misplaced

Ask me how
it feels to be denuded
by the nature
to be subject to
thousand violations
everyday

to itch and not able to
scratch
to think and not able to speak
to feel and not able to scream
to cry and not able to howl
to perceive danger and not be able to run


ask yourself
if I was worthy of your wrath
or i just
"came in the way"


And the "God "
who did the deed
why was providence
so silent on him

I am not upset
that you
abandoned me
for a jungle to grow
around me

My Lord ,
you will be amazed
to hear that
the cowardly me
no longer fears
the fiercest wild animal

The ones I fear
are those whom the world worships
the "Gods"




Sunday 6 September 2015

I hope

In the midst of blistering summer noon , I hope for rain,
In the thick of wrenching sorrow, I hope for no pain,
When confronted with insurmountable loss, I hope for gain,
Faced with poverty and famine, I hope for riches and grain,

And when forced to race , I invariably pray for a sprain,
Air travel sickens me , I always hope for a ride by the train,
My chaotic verses resemble a defunct or a  derailed train

The thought processes have refused to soar,
I had hoped for a great earth shaking roar,
But , look at me, I ended as a deadened bore.

Wednesday 2 September 2015

Please remit

Your life was loaned to you
for a finite period of time
After you have lived
please remit.
Your kids were given to you
for few years , to nurture
feed, comb , and clean
enjoy their company
and then
please remit
Your spouse
Your job
Your health
Your vision
Your limbs
hearing
movement
agility
clarity
everything is loaned to you
time bound
please remit

Hunger

Hunger is the name
of the pot bellied boy
who rolls down a worn tire
by the stream every morning
clad in tatters
scratching his straw hair
with grimy fingers
Hunger is the name
of the woman who has given birth
to her umpteenth daughter
whose breast milk has long
dried up and where even hope
has shriveled into an ugly
howling fistful of life
Hunger is the name
of the old bunch of bones
who squats, hunched at the
entrance to rail station,
leaning on a lathi
for life-support, as the avalanche
of humans at rush -hour
sways her, to and fro
like a reed in monsoon

Hunger is the name 
of the wrinkled face 
that looks up at the blatantly 
blue sky , bereft of benevolence
parched tongue , beating heart 
in requirement of a respite 
sanguine  agonies of the mind spilling 
out through porous eyes 
Your crop needs moisture 
o farmer , not your saline tears

Hunger is the name 
of the lush verdant crop field 
reduced to a cracked desert 
in two seasons flat
when the rain Gods turned their 
backs on us

Hunger is the name 
of the dwindling last sack 
of rice , kept for "Beej"(seed)
but which was opened in 
one inauspicious moment 
of a wailing infant and 
a chullah gone cold.